...um, yeah, do i know you?...

i went to a high school graduation on friday. a graduation for the school i might have gone too. it was a bad idea. well, it was a good idea. it worked, in theory. i got to watch some of my oldest friends graduate from highschool, and i got to see some of my other old friends. it should have been lovely.

but it wasn't, not quite. for one thing, lately, i've noticed, when i'm around town with one of my friends (who i've been friends with my whole life), other people that we've known forever say hi to her, but not me. am i just paranoid? anti-social? does this blue hair really make me look that different? or am i really falling out of every social loop around, and everyone is forgetting me?

so yeah, i got hella ignored at the graduation by some people, and, while i did get to see my friendzZz, i felt like the odd man out. i was dressed differently, i'm taller and fatter than all of them, and i just kind of stuck out. besides that, i got replaced by a girl who has hair so blonde that it makes me want to cry. she's beautiful and they're best friends and i'm all alone. i guess i create my life that way.

but if it's my fault, then why does it hurt so much?

biting her lips and wishing for rain,
*madlane*