...apathy can really suck...

but sometimes it would be nice.


boy and my friend (who has a crush on him) may or may not have gotten romantically involved today. the fact that they may have is crushing my soul but it's the uncertainty that's killing me. why the fuck do i care so much?


because i'm in love with him. no matter how much i laugh about it, make fun of it, and make a game out of it, i really, really, really, really like boy. i love boy. goddammit.


i've been fucked up about this since early afternoon...so i don't really feel like writing about this...or my good news...i can't be excited any more.



kissing the clouds and crying,
*madlane*