...nightmares...

i had a nightmare last night. i dreamt that boy and another girl had committed suicide. it was awful. i was sobbing my eyes out, and when i finally calmed down, i thought of him again and started up again. that went on for a while, and then later... i was in some sort of van thing with him and some other people, and he was driving and got out and started to walk. the rest of us got out as well, stopped him, and put him back in the car, through the window. i said something about "you can't do that, you were just dead last night" or something. it was the oddest thing. the dream ended with me "kickboxing" (kicking a huge bouncy ball at eachother) with the girl (she wasn't actually dead, or something). it was a weird dream. but i was bloody exhausted when i woke up, from all that crying and whatnot.