...gothiness...

i want to go goth. not in a lame, "oh my god being goth is cool now i must be cool" sort of way, but in a "ack i have this goth chick living my chest and she's screaming and hacking my sternum with a machete and blow torch and i gotta let her out" sort of way. only i can't. go goth. at least looks wise. for a few reasons.

1. mum won't let me dye my hair. (i want to do black with "vampire red" streaks)
2. i can't afford (at least until i get this bloody ipod shuffle that i'm starving for) new clothes (or have time to make them) or makeup

i'm sure there's more reasons but i'm too bloody tired to think of them. so i may add more later. if i feel like it.